Monday, January 30, 2006
i'm officially an adult now... spent my birthday last week doing nothing much as i had to book in the very same evening... my family bought a small cake, the idea of my little brother who insisted that a picture of a fighter plane be placed on the cake as he knew that i'm interested in planes... thanks brother.. love him so very much!! not forgetting my family too, i love them very much!!
it seems like it was juz yesterday that i started my first day of poly.... time really flies when you're having fun... not really looking forward to the future cause i simply don't know what the heck i'll be doing then.... enough said...
took a ride on a chinook last week also.... it was damn cool... but too bad it was only for awhile.... it was simply too short....
will be flying off to taiwan this coming sat... feeling freaking nervous now.... i'll be there for 3 weeks.... even though friends have told me it'll be fun over there, somehow i still have doubts bout it... cause i'm juz so afraid of screwing up, again... that's how lowly i think of myself.... but then again, so many people have gone through it and survived... i'll juz do my best i guess... take care peeps... cheers..
Riz lost himself at
1/30/2006 11:49:00 pm
0 comments
Monday, January 09, 2006
i'm getting more sick of this course.... getting more disillusioned by the day.... what's the purpose of me being there.... i juz don understand some of the training that we do.... really really can't wait for the course to end.... oh well... these days, i've been feeling really down... in fact, i've been feeling like this ever since i entered this bloody course.... i know it will sound stupid if i say this, but i've been feeling kind of lonely... go ahead and laugh.... i feel as if there's no one for me to talk to.... and i've realised that i don really have that many friends.... its more of acquaintances rather than friendship.... to think that i felt i had many friends when i was in poly.... it was like i was living in a fantasy world all this while, and suddenly i got woken up into the present reality.... feeling so useless and so worthless.... i have no aim in life, and i really don know what i'm gonna do in future... damn... why am i feeling this way... shit, i've been whining more than usual today... please do ignore this post if you find it too painful or too annoying for your comfort....
Riz lost himself at
1/09/2006 11:11:00 pm
0 comments
